The last moment...

Fear Confusion Happy Sad Cheerful Pain Hope ... All the feelings will fade away when you are breathing for the last time of your life. It sounds sad and hopeless, but at the same time I feel accepting. I had a chance to witness two terminal cancer patients at the last stage for their lives. It is not easy to see them go, but I called it a chance because the experiences I had taught me to be much stronger. I realize that nothing last forever. Staring at them is like I'm watching myself in the future.... My grandmother suffered so much through her last four months. I was so close and take care of her from a very beginning to the end. I learnt a lot from my mother during the process of cleaning severe wounds on her chest. Many horrible scenes due to her illness stuck in my mind from the first to the fourth chemo therapy we went together. Then, my aunt.. a poor lady had the intestine cancer. She did not recieve a chemo therapy like my grandmom. She went for a natural therapy where the doctor will give you such super vitamins and strict to what you eat. Generally only vegetable drinks she had for three months..and after that she passed away in peace... These two events of my life were tough on me and my family, but we overcame it..I saw many have said cancer patients need good encouragement, it is very true.. They both were very strong until the last moment. I feel that we can buy anything, but time, health and happiness. Hence, if these three things can secure you to live longer when you still have strengths, do it before it's too late. Stay happy and healthy. Use your time efficiently! Once you 're into the difficult times, you may want to turn back time, but you can not. I have told myself whenever I deal with difficulties " Enjoy the moment " It's hard to do, I know. but trust me, we all can enjoy the moment bit by bit. Before I will be in the sorrow and blame on the fate of why life 's suck, but now I'm trying to make it better.. I did what I could.. Most importantly, stop comparing yourself to others. This is the happiness killer. How can you be happy when you only see others happiness. Right ? Anyhow.. Another rambling post and I hope you can capture my ideas here. Stay happy, do your best in everyday. Do not underestimate the time and unexpected circumstances you have never thought of. Think of the uncertainty and reality. Be more accepted to the real you. Peace. Air